It is a struggle to believe with God we can overcome all things, but then also realize are own humanity is full of emotions and perceptions that zap our joy.

Sometimes we find ourselves at a crossroad between what we thought life would look like and there is a roadblock sign, and then another road that seemingly presents itself as nothing but thorns and thistles.  We choose the road with the thorns and thistles because right now it is the only path, we are able to walk through. We are not even sure what else resides in such a place, but to remain standing at the point of the crossroad and wondering what is beyond the roadblock will not do anything but continue to stir up emotions and the what ifs, we know we have to take the road that is open to us no matter how uninviting it might seem at the time.

I am in this season right now that in some parts of it I feel so blessed, I am walking in the calling that God had spoken over me almost 10 years ago. I lead a bible study class; I have a few people I mentor, and I know what it is to lead by example, and I have seen the future take root for me in regard to ministry…

 There are also some parts of this season that have also been hard…

I just turned 40 years old, and to be silly, I will say I had hoped Jesus would have come back before that happened, but to also be serious, I thought I would have somethings by now that I don’t, but even on top of that I am dealing with some health issues right now that prevent me from being me. I was doing everything 110%, I was working two jobs without issue, I was meeting with people a few times a week to just be present with them and speak into their life, I enjoyed doing life fully, and always knowing that I could be counted on…

It has always been a joy for me to help others, to listen to their stories, to help them rise from where they are, and to watch them shine from the places they never thought they could…

I have always loved helping at church, working right alongside with my friends and being there when I was needed…

I have always worked well under pressure at any job, and anytime I was called to ask if I could cover a shift, I was always up for the challenge…

At this time, while I am going through this health stuff, I am having a hard time just being present at church every Sunday depending how I am feeling…and it is HARD on me.

There was an awesome message today about Jabez, and I heard bits and pieces, but I could not focus, I just teared up between slides.

Everything I have been feeling and thinking, it came to the surface.

After church, I mad dashed home and grabbed the pup and changed and took my headphones and went to walk the park trail.

At first, it felt just like normal exercise was not really in the mood to deal, but as the songs changed, I started to pay attention to the nature around me.

Something I do remember from Pastors message today was that we “sing for joy,” and he mentioned a few of David’s “greatest hits,” or Psalms that were written.

I looked up at the trees, and I noticed how they had their own position of where they stood, the direction the branches were going, and whether they still had leaves…I imagined what the roots might look like underneath…I thought of Psalm 1…

I walked a little further and noticed to my right was a usual looking monarch, it was orange at the base and on the inside a true to form monarch.  It was by itself drinking the nectar of single stemmed small white flower planted there in the middle of the grass.

I walked about another few steps and noticed the colors coming from a single red berried branch…

I realized at that moment; God was speaking to me through what He had created.

The song that had come to my ears was, “Speak the Name,” by Koryn Hawthorne, and as I listened to it, I heard part of the scripture “Because He bends down to listen…”

Psalm 116:2

“Because he bends down to listen, I will pray as long as I have breath.”

God was sharing with me that He knows where I am, He knows what I am feeling, what I am thinking, and the fears that I have right now, He knows me so well, that He knew how to get my attention…

When I was driving home and I put the song “Speak the Name,” on again, I thought about Natalie Grant and how when she had cancer in her vocal chords and that once the cancer was removed she had a more powerful voice then she had in the past.

It comes down to this…

God made the trees…He knows that branches will break…He knows exactly the places they break.

Paul had what he called, “a thorn,” in his flesh, God knew what He was dealing with, and He knew how Paul would respond…

At the end of the day, God is not asking us to put on a game face and push through life, He is asking that we stop staying busy and face what we need to be facing…

And He will deal with it with us…

Face to face.


Photo by Marcel Strauß on Unsplash

For those Lost and those Found

daniel-jensen-UDleHDOhBZ8-unsplashImage by Daniel Jensen

I never actually read through, “ A Tale of Two Cities,” by Charles Dickens, but it could be that the first paragraph of the entirety of the book struck me so deep:

It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity, it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair, we had everything before us, we had nothing before us, we were all going direct to Heaven, we were all going direct the other way—in short, the period was so far like the present period, that some of its noisiest authorities insisted on its being received, for good or for evil, in the superlative degree of comparison only.”

My friends, we are currently living a tale of two groups of people, and the above quotations can largely describe what we are all feeling like as a nation.

There is a lot of anxiety and fear right now, there is a lot of people that are afraid of the virus and anxious from being out of work that they will not know how to provide for their family.

There is a lot of hopelessness too, and people who just cannot see how if there is a God why He would allow something so horrible into our lives and uproot us fully from everyday life.

There is a blame game of the origin of where the virus began, and also blaming politicians in every nation for not doing, “ more,” to keep it from spreading.

Fear is mostly the culprit in all of this though, because store shelves are not just empty locally but all over the world there are shortages of items that people just hoarded and some of it has no real necessity at the very present moment.

We laugh at memes, we watch news stories, we mock people who do this or did that…

But fear is the real deal, and we should really stop and just check on people daily or weekly, our families, are friends and our neighbors.  Everyone is going through some sense of fear right now, does not matter who you are and does not matter what you believe….it is real, and we are all feeling it.

We do need to further discuss what are healthy and unhealthy fears though, because there is a difference.

Healthy Fears:

I am someone with a history of pneumonia more than once in the last 5 years, and I have asthmatic allergies that can easily bring that on if I do not take an allergy pill daily, but even more so, I have a mother with Crohn’s disease, who I have seen go through more than several surgeries in her entire lifetime, and once with Mrsa that left her in the hospital for a good few months and we almost lost her.  When she goes to the hospital they place her in the cancer wing, because she cannot take any chances of infection happening to her body.

Which is why if she receives the coronavirus it would be really difficult for her recovery.

In this healthy fear though, we just do what we need to do to keep us safe.

I am working from home, I stay indoors, and I have chosen not to see my mother right now, or my friends that need to be away from people because they have other health issues, because I have been working call center and have been around other people that I am not sure whether or not they could have been carrying it, and where I live right now has more “presumptive,” cases then the entire county, and so it is wise to be inside and use precaution as now it is necessary.

People have said, “ I will not let this virus run my life,” but honestly, not everyone has that choice, and we can make a choice to protect other people just by letting our daily routines change for awhile.

Unhealthy fears:

This is also a time that people will be preyed on to create unhealthy fears, and I would say the media is a great example.  It is a virus, we are not living in bomb shelters, and a hurricane is not coming straight for us.  The parks, beaches, Disney etc, they were not closed because you can get the virus from sitting on a piece of grass, they were closed, because people do not know how to stay far enough away and not cough or sneeze on others, and apparently many do not know how to wash hands properly and let us not get started on people who do not know how to use a toilet property…It is the sad truth.

Again, I work in a call center, and I already know that once you hear someone cough, then what ever the virus is at the current moment will travel through the air, it is what happens when you work closely with people, or are too close to people who are sick.

Putting both of these fears aside I want to speak a little more on what I have observed as I have paid attention to people all over the world, and it is not something I know for fact, but is something I have often thought of through the course of watching this virus consume different parts of the world…

Personally, I believe according to my own faith that this is God’s judgement on our world, we can agree or disagree, but it is my belief.

When Donald Trump took office it revealed some deep rooted things in the hearts of the people everywhere, but especially in America.  I am not talking about because he as a person became the president, but the reaction and the response from people since that moment.

I was raised to respect authority, my grandfather would not let me have something unless I said, “ Thank you, May I, or Please?” My parents used to tell me that when I went out into the world I was a reflection of them, at the time I did not really understand that, but now I realize it meant that I am to be in the world who I have been taught to be at home. (No home is perfect, but there are morals and values that are good that all of us have been taught at some point.)

I was taught to stay quiet when adults around me were having a conversation unless it was important.  I was taught to respect people of all cultures and races, I was taught to have respect for the elderly and listen to their stories of the wars, and where they came from…

I am not saying by any means that our president is a stellar example of character, but I am saying if my grandfather was alive today he would say he may not agree with the man, but he would shake his hand because he was the president.

When I think of the authority over our nation right now I think back to the book of Daniel, and how because he honored the Lord so much that even though he was under the King of Babylon as  prisoner he still showed honor to him too, not because he agreed with him, but because he trusted in God, and God wants us to give honor and respect to all authority.

Praise be to the name of God for ever and ever;

wisdom and power are his.

He changes times and seasons;

he deposes kings and raises up others.

He gives wisdom to the wise

and knowledge to the discerning.

He reveals deep and hidden things;

he knows what lies in darkness,

and light dwells with him.

I thank and praise you, God of my ancestors:

You have given me wisdom and power,

you have made known to me what we asked of you,

you have made known to us the dream of the king.”

(Daniel 2:21-23)

King Neb (I can never spell his name, so we are nicknaming him), had a dream and asked for magicians and astrologers to interpret it, but they could not.  Daniel was able to interpret the dream because the Lord revealed it to him.  King Neb, fell down in front Daniel and worshipped him.

Daniel became honorary to the king and lived many years in the palace through king after king.

God does things to help his people rise up, He did not interpret Neb’s dream for the benefit of the king but for Daniel and the Jews.

It is possible that the church was never meant to be a building for worshippers that already know God, but possibly a place for those to go who do not, but want to know there is somewhere to find hope. As Christians, we are to rise up, and not waver under the fears that surround us all right now, we need to be strong for those who really are scared, and really cannot see hope from where they are.  We need to speak encouragement to people who have lost things during this time, jobs and graduations, ceremonies and other events that are not happening because of the quarantines.

People all over the world who are in quarantine are having time to sit and open their Bible for the first time, to listen to messages online, and people are praying who have never before.

We want them to keep reading, we want them to keep listening and we want them to keep praying.

“ If my people who are called by name, would humble themselves and pray, seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I would hear from heaven and I will heal their land.”

(2 Chr 7:14)

God is talking to those who already BELIEVE in the verse above. Yes, he is mainly talking to the Israelites, but  He is calling US to humble ourselves, to pray, and seek HIS face MORE than we have in the past, He is calling US to turn from the ways we have allowed the world to influence us and PRESS IN, and from our example, we will then be able to teach others around us how to do the same.

Whenever God gives judgement He will also bring about grace through it.We will get through this TOGETHER, as long we all stay together.

LSOF: The Importance Of Legacy

We often hear about “Family Trees,” and how to find our ancestors online and our heritage. We know where we learned to speak the language we do, we know how to share about what our parents were like, or our siblings and other family members, but there are not trees that we can put together online to find where we have been influenced.

Only we know deep down who influenced us most, who left a legacy, an imprint on our lives, who shaped us deeper than our own family, who taught us specific things that became our strengths, who was that example to us of morals and values that we might not have been raised to know.

Sometimes it can be our family as the ones who influenced for the positive, and sometimes it can be outside sources, those who maybe we could have met sitting on a train to New York, or standing in the grocery line.

I remember I was sitting an airport and this woman said to me, “ It is important to find angels in this world, but its more important to be one ourselves.”  I have never forgotten that, I am pretty sure I was about 12.

It is very true that each person we meet in our lives, is either there for a season, to get us through the certain time, a reason, that maybe they are there at the airport with a word, or a lifetime…they walk through each season with us, and we are always learning new things from them, and we walk alongside one another.

I could name a good few people…My Pastor and his wife have amazing parents that led the way for them, My Pastor’s mom once helped bring over 100 children to salvation because of starting transportation to church each Sunday, which if you knew my Pastor you would see that on his heart in the way of going out into the city and sharing Jesus with anyone and everyone in anyway possible and My Pastors wife, her parents have taught all over the country and her mother has written Bible Studies.  She follows in their footsteps and is a very powerful teacher. I have personally learned more than I could have ever imagined from them all.

We all have a influence, we all have a voice…it does not end with us.

The point of talking about legacy though, today was Billy Graham’s funeral.

Everyone has their own story of how Billy Graham impacted them.

My mom could tell you the call she received from him while working for At&t and she had to connect his call.

For me, I don’t have a Billy Graham story, but I do have one of Anne Graham Lotz.

It was September 2010. It was a very tough year, a forced move back to Florida, my best friend passed away…it was just a very tough year.

My friend and I were chatting one day about “ Just Give Me Jesus,” and she said she thought about reading it, and I replied how I had owned the book and maybe I should pick it back up.

I started to read it, and within that week my friend I worked at retail store with advised me that Anne Graham Lotz would be at her church that Saturday and invited me.

I’ll never forget the way she walked on stage. It was not a beginning with, “ Good morning, how is everyone…” blah blah…it was walking on stage and saying, “ Let’s open our Bibles.” She was direct and to the point and made sure everyone knew the reason she stood on that stage that day. It was the first lesson that truly explained to me who the Holy Spirit really was, which in the best way to describe in her words were. “ Jesus without skin.”

You can find her full teaching here:

Influence is like a family tree. Anyone who has ever impacted you or I, they connect somewhere to another branch. This is what it is to be the body of Christ, we all have a part, we all have a calling, we all have people God wants us to reach out to and show them who He is through us.

I loved how I wrote a comment about having attended the teaching on Beth Moore’s blog as she shared about Living Proof Live from that weekend and she replied to me, ” I love this. I have such esteem for Anne.”  She was in the middle of sharing about her conference and those comments poured in, but it spoke such volumes that she replied to that one.

We all are connected in some way, shape or form….by influence.

We have been influenced, and its important to rise up and show the world what we know, what are the facts, teach them truth in love, and even if they might not listen to us at first, we know we were once people who did not always “ listen,” either. Stand in the gap for those whose voices are becoming hoarse and speak alongside of them.

It is okay if the world knows we are not perfect, but we should be able to point to let them know that God is, and that He can handle far more than our strength, wisdom and knowledge ever could.

He is who we should influence the world by, we speak, live, breathe, move because of Him alone.












LSOF: The Greater Things

Sometimes we are faced with tough moments. We all have been there. We have had those moments of “crisis of faith,” and we try to do things our own way, because God just does not seem to be “quick,” enough, or maybe we just have a hard time believing that He really sees what we are going through.

I was dealing with somethings recently that took a toll on my faith, not that I had lost my faith, but that I had lost my focus.  I was distracted.

I would find myself trying to pray, listening to audiobooks, praise and worship music, and letting the Bible lay open in front of me but not getting further than the current page. I was taking notes at church, but not taking in the message.  I wanted so much to get back to the place of growth, but the more I tried I could only vision briar thorns in front of me that I could not see past.

I had grown weary on waiting for what He has promised. I had grown weary on the doctor visits, and financial situations that have held me back, conflicts in family relationships and that one day I really would meet the love of my life, just started to fade from my mind.

The song at church I heard practicing was, “ Blessed be your name.” And I almost lost it, I could not be in that room and hear, “ You give and take away.” Because in my mind, I was seeing somethings disappearing that I had not even yet been given.

A few days later, I woke up in the morning to a phone call for another doctor appointment. They wanted to check to be sure my insurance would be covering it, and placed me on hold for a few minutes, and in those few minutes I prayed about it, and when the nurse came back on the line, I made the decision to decline the appointment. I told the nurse, who was persistent to ask that I would not decline the appointment, that I believed God has a plan for me.

I hung up the phone, and I felt the tears fill my eyes. I then felt pressed on my heart a specific part of scripture that I want to share, because it has stayed with me since that morning and maybe you need it too.

Luke 10:38-42

Mary and Martha

38 Now as they were traveling along, He entered a village; and a woman named Martha welcomed Him into her home. 39 She had a sister called Mary, who was seated at the Lord’s feet, listening to His word. 40 But Martha was distracted with [q]all her preparations; and she came up to Him and said, “Lord, do you not care that my sister has left me to do all the serving alone? Then tell her to help me.” 41 But the Lord answered and said to her, “Martha, Martha, you are worried and bothered about so many things42 but only one thing is necessary, for Mary has chosen the good part, which shall not be taken away from her.”

The part of the passage that laid on my heart that morning was spoken in this way,

“ She has chosen which is greater and it will not be taken from her.”

I was Martha through the things I was dealing with, distracted and overwhelmed with what was in front on me, and trying to keep control, trying to just keep on the happy face and go about the day, I was trying to do well at my job, with my family and friends, and serving at church, and everything suddenly felt like a hamster wheel that just kept going and going.

Staying busy does not allow us time to be still.

It was as if God was saying to me after the phone call that day that while I had been Martha all that time, that making the choice to trust Him and let Him have control brought me back to His feet and I became more like Mary.

I would have loved to know what Mary had been dealing with that kept focus so deep on Jesus that day, and I would have loved to know what kept Martha more distracted then just the “preparations.” We know she was a widow, but we are not told how long ago in had happened.

There is a real life story of an artist, “ Joni Eareckson Tada, and she became paralyzed when she dived into the Chesapeake Bay that was shallow. She is only able to paint by the paintbrush in her mouth.

I had been told about her story one night at church through one of my leaders just in conversation, and Sunday morning that leader gave me a magazine to read so I could learn about this person.

I did not open and read the story until today before I wrote this post.

Joni states in her story that she often finds herself depressed and without courage, but to keep herself encouraged she sings hymns through it.

She keeps her focus on Jesus alone.

“ To know that Christ’s grace is available— it won’t take away the pain, but it will give you the courage to face it.”

I want to end this with a point a friend of mine reminded me of as I wrote this,

“ It is not Martha OR Mary, it is Martha AND Mary.”

It is about where we will allow ourselves to place our focus, we can relate to them both.

“ She has chosen which is greater and it will not be taken from her.”

Here is a song that as I began to write this post today that suddenly came on youtube while I waited for Bethel Music to come on. I dig the title 🙂






LSOF: Erica’s story 

I told my friend Erica to write out her story tonight. She is one of the sweetest and dearest to my heart that I met while training the team in Kentucky.

When I first met her, I remember she had such a bright smile, and she was excited when she learned I was a Christian, and she told me her favorite verse was Isaiah 40:31. 

“But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” (Isaiah 40:31)

Before I share her story I want to add that we all have fallen short, and off the path at one point or another, but it’s about getting up, rising up, and I’m proud of my young friend for pushing forward.
” Some say that we only talked to God when bad things happen in our lives, but I don’t agree with this. When something good happens to you or you receive good news, you get this feeling that’s indescribable. That feeling is God. He’s there with you though the good and bad no matter if you talk to him or not. 
I’ve lost my way through the years, at 8 years old my mind was not thinking about religion or good or bad. We all went to church every Sunday, and my father carried his Bible everywhere. One day, my father was taken from me and I did not question God or try to understand why. I didn’t lose my faith here. 

6 years later, I was 15 years old; and on my way to church with my mom. We got in a car accident and we were hit head on. I was hardly injured with basic bumps and bruises, but my mom was hurt, and no one would let me see her, and for three hours I prayed to God that He would not take her, I begged Him, I told Him I could not live without my mom. At 9 pm my whole world was taken from me as the doctor came in to speak with me, as I was told then she had not made it to the hospital, I had prayed for three hours not knowing she had already passed away. I was shattered. Shattered. I know now that it wasn’t God that caused it, but I was upset. I was angry that he could take her away from me. I never could understand why. 

I began to fade, someone would mention church or the bible and I would shut it out completely. One day, my teacher pulled me aside and shared with me Isaiah 40:31 and said “You need to hear these words.”  Reading through the passage started to give me hope in God a little more.

I married my husband after I graduated, we had a baby, and after three years we decided to part ways. I was broken, he was my best friend. I was destroyed.

I’m not gonna lie I started seeing this guy who was “picture perfect” but he had a lot of skeletons in his closet and made me questions a lot of things about myself and faith. I was at my lowest. Stressed about money as a single mom and not receiving any child support, work, friendships that ended because of my relationship, etc. 
and then the day of Feb 9th came which was a little under a week of the day my dad passed away 15 years before. Something told me to take a pregnancy test. Two lines appeared. I instantly cried out and thank God for this. I also cried because i was scared and not in a stable relationship that honored Him.

5 months into my pregnancy, several appointment later. It’s a boy!!. 

The father left me and ended our relationship. I got scared. I was going to be doing this alone with an already 3 year old. I began to cry and pray and I opened to the book of Isaiah for comfort, and as I was reading Isaiah 66:9, I felt the baby kick. I instantly knew that I was carrying Isaiah Joseph.

God redeems us from the places we have been, and I’m so thankful for His grace.”

“In the same way I will not cause pain without allowing something new to be born,” says the Lord.”  (Isaiah 66:9)

LSOF: Because Mary Believed

We are all pretty familiar with the song, “Mary Did You Know?” Which centers around the life and ministry of Jesus.

It is a very nice song, but I want to discuss a huge part in all of it.

Mary Believed.

Mary believed God for what He said He would do, and who He said she would become.

We first learn that Mary would become pregnant through the Holy Spirit in Luke 1:28-33

The angel went to her and said, “Greetings, you who are highly favored! The Lord is with you.”

It is interesting how Mary responds to him.

Mary was greatly troubled at his words and wondered what kind of greeting this might be.

I can relate to her response, we all could.

When God calls us to do something it usually is known to have some serious responsibility included and it is easy to be troubled.

Mary also wondered what kind of greeting it was, and I might suggest this might not have been the first encounter speaking to an angel, because of what the next portion says,

But the angel said to her, “Do not be afraid, Mary, you have found favor with God.”

It is about 2am, Christmas Eve, as I have sat myself down to write this, and I will have my alarm set in about 4.5 hrs for work…but I was led to this portion of scripture tonight by words pressed upon my heart while I was praying.

Where you are hard on yourself is where you doubt me.”

This really shook me for a moment, it was so clear, and yet shocking at the same time, and then I wiped the tears off my face and composed myself.

I have a calling on my life, I have something the Lord wants to birth from me, but there are places in my life where I really have trouble believing I’m capable to truly overcome, because these are places I have not truly given to God to lead me in.

Blessed is she who has believed that what the Lord said will be accomplished (Luke 1:45)

Clearly, we know Mary would conceive Jesus and that He would be the Savior of the world, but it goes deeper than that.

For one, we don’t know if that night speaking with the angel if they had more of a conversation, but we do know that Mary was human, she was young and she was given a huge Calling over her  life.

There almost seems to be a similarity to Philippians 1:6 “He who began a good work in you will finish it to completion in Christ Jesus.”

Mary knew she was too, also in need of a Savior. She was aware she was imperfect and given the responsibility to birth and raise a son through God Himself. 

“Mary, Did you know?” really began with the faith from Mary that God would keep His promise.

Merry Christmas 🙂

LSOF: When Jesus became EVERYTHING.

I had praying one night a few months back and God brought to my heart a familiar verse, “ Love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your mind and all your strength.” And I remember trying to figure out the depth of that scripture. So what I made the mistake of doing was the “ Thinker,” that I am analyzed it piece by piece. “ Where was I not loving God?” but I soon learned loving God the way I’ve come to know is not the whole of it. I could love him with my heart, but would not mean I would never desire something in the world and fail at this, I could love him with all my soul, and then my emotions can play games and I might not always “feel,” like loving Him, I may love Him with my mind, but my mind is a battlefield and is distracted easily by other things, and I may love Him with all my strength, but I get weary without a good amount of coffee, so I know that I would never be perfect at that either.

God showed me it was never about the ways I loved Him, it was what I believed about Him, that I would love Him for who He is.  I could never be content just realizing what He has done. I had to recognize that I love Him when I realize He is all that matters.

Anyone can love someone for what they’ve done. We hear news stories about heroism daily, but how many will sit down and listen to stories that do not pertain to bravery and courage? How many would sit down to just know and love the person for who they are?

I learned that I truly love Him when I recognize He is everything and more. When we truly want to know who He is.

He is more than my job and its stresses, He is more than the people I care about in my life and how I stretch myself thin at times to be there, He is more than what I find I am best at, and where I struggle to become better…

If I love Him when I say He means everything then that says I love Him by what I have seen Him do, but if I say I love him because He is everything then that means I love Him for who He is.

People who get into relationships with people by what they can “ give,” them, will find those relationships do not last. To have something last you have to want to really know someone, appreciate who they are, their personality, their likes and dislikes, and accept them for who they are and there is balance of “give” and “ receive.”

If we are not also giving God our time to worship Him, If we are not in the Word, if we are not in church “breaking bread,” with others and giving of our time, then we will only be those who are on our knees praying to God to give us things, and answer our prayers and we do this selfishly, because we don’t want to give back to Him. And we are all selfish in one way or another in this area, if not right now, we have been in the past.

We are not loving God when we only ask for what He can do for us; We fail to love Him just because.

It makes me think of the rich young ruler from Luke 18:19-

This rich young ruler walked up to Jesus one day. Perhaps we can imagine him with a long robe, and gold chains hanging from his neck, he might have been carrying gold in his pockets, and he might have even had a servant with him carrying food.
“ Good teacher, what must I do to inherit eternal life?” I have to wonder in asking this question if he might have thought he could, “ buy,” it.  I can imagine Jesus turning around and looking at this man,  “Why do you call me good?” “No one is good except God alone.” He goes on to share, “ You know the commandments: “ Do not commit adultery, do not murder, do not steal, do not give false testimony, honor your father and mother.”

I picture the rich young ruler putting his hand over his heart, “ All this I have kept since I was a young boy.”

And then Jesus tests him…

Jesus says to him, “ You still lack one thing. Sell everything you have and give to the poor and you will have treasures in heaven. Then come follow me.”

Essentially here I believe Jesus was really saying without saying, “ You want to learn how to love me, because you are asking how to have eternal life, and only through me will you have it my friend, and to do this, I ask you to leave everything to follow me, if you do that, then following me above all else, means you love me.”

The rich young rulers face might have changed to discouragement, and he might have hung his head in shame, because being rich was his identity, it’s the only identity he chose to have. It meant more to him then earning eternal life.

I can see Jesus look at his reaction and say, “ How hard is it for the rich to enter the kingdom of God, Indeed, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God.”

Or He could have also added, “ You rather love what you have then who I am.”

We too can find at times in our lives we could relate to this rich young ruler.

Obedience is not easy folks, because it takes humility. But we show our love for God in our obedience.

Jesus endured it being whipped 39 times, he endured it carrying a cross for miles, He endured it while hanging by nails. So if something is asked of us, we do not have much room to ignore it, because to carry our cross means we give everything we have an empty ourselves of who we are for a greater cause.

We lay down our lives.

Jesus did it out of love. We must learn to love Him in that way too.

So who could teach our dear rich young ruler how to respond to give up all he owned to follow Jesus?

I have to wonder how Peter observed this encounter with Jesus. I have to wonder what was going through his mind when he watched the excitement the rich young ruler had and then change to full despair and walk away.

Peter could have shared with him the story of how he left everything he owned to follow Jesus, He could have shared with him about how with Jesus there would always be enough like the feeding of the five thousand, he could have shared with him about risking his life to get out of the boat just to meet Jesus on the water, and he could have shared with him that Jesus knew what He was talking about. I wonder if that day if anyone did talk to the rich young ruler, or if he went home and closed the door alone.

Peter loved Jesus. He knew Jesus because He walked with Him, He saw face expresssions, he learned Jesus personality, he saw his reactions, he got to know how Jesus would respond to things. He loved Jesus because He learned who He was.

Lord may that be us.

“All of you is more than enough for all of me, For every thirst and every need, you satisfy me with your love, and all I have in you is more than enough.”  – Chris Tomlin, “ Enough.”





LSOF: Homeward Bound

We last ended with Peter’s miraculous escape from prison. To give a brief synopsis, Peter was was forced into prison in awaiting trial by King Herod, He was bound in chains…and God intervened and helped him to escape. Once Peter was out of the prison standing alone on the street he came to his senses that he was no longer bound.

When this had dawned on him, he went to the house of Mary the mother of John, also called Mark, where many people had gathered and were praying. (Acts 12:12)

I love this part of this next scripture, because it starts with, “When THIS had dawned on him.”

WHAT was it that dawned on him?…He realized he was FREE. And what does scripture say he did after the realization…He went to tell people about it.

And they overcame and conquered him because of the blood of the Lamb and because of the word of their testimony, for they did not love their life and renounce their faith even when faced with death. (Revelation 12:11)

What if Peter did not go back home and tell what the Lord had done for him? What if after he was standing there in the street that he went into hiding? What if he went and lived a life away from all he loved because he was afraid to be captured again?

We sometimes live like this, and we know people who live like this.

This is what it is to not believe that we have been set free.

 “If the Son sets you free then you are free indeed.” (John 8:36)

I believe it is safe to say that most of us grow up with the “spiritual” mentality that we will always “struggle,” with this or that sin.  But what if I told you that what scripture says “free indeed,” means that we are free of all sins? Do you think that is true?

One of my favorite scriptures is,

Ecclesiastes 3:11, “ He makes ALL THINGS beautiful in its time.”

We have to get in the mindset that we are “FREE,” is ALL THINGS, because Jesus died on the cross so that we would be. But once we are free, then we learn how to stop doing things in the same way that put us in that place of bondage before. And we have to be gentle on ourselves and know He began a good work, and it is HE that will finish it!

While the picture is in drawing, and the house in building, we see not the beauty of either; but when the artist has put his last hand to them, and given them their finishing strokes, then all appears very good

(Matthew Henry Commentary on Ecclesiastes 3:11)

It could be that Peter might have been a little afraid of being captured again, I mean he was human, but he also knew that he could find accountability back at Mary’s house, regardless of the state he was in.

And what do we know about what was happening before he knocked on the door…his friends were praying for him.

We need our friends, we need people that our there for us, that open our homes to us, that are there to lean on when we need it, and we need the truth spoken to us in love.

13 Peter knocked at the outer entrance, and a servant named Rhoda came to answer the door. 14 When she recognized Peter’s voice, she was so overjoyed she ran back without opening it and exclaimed, “Peter is at the door!” (Acts 12:13-14)

I love this, because the servant was the one to come to the door, and she did not open the door.  Because again it paints a picture to how we react when someone we know comes, “ clean,” so to speak. We are excited to see them, but we don’t open the door right away.

 “You’re out of your mind,” they told her. When she kept insisting that it was so, they said, “It must be his angel. ”But Peter kept on knocking, and when they opened the door and saw him, they were astonished.  Peter motioned with his hand for them to be quiet and described how the Lord had brought him out of prison. “Tell James and the other brothers and sisters about this,” he said, and then he left for another place. (Acts 12:16-17)

I also love how he kept knocking too.  People that who are set free to know they are free they have something, “ different,” about them.  One thing is they do not carry “shame, or guilt,” they do not “ hide or avoid others.” If they are truly free they will be knocking down the doors of the church to share what God has done or in this day tweeting or posting on Facebook.

Peter knew that there was a greater purpose in him being set free, and it so moved him that he left what was familiar to begin to preach what God had done from place to place.

We have a responsibility to be an example to this world around us.  Where there is favor like Peter being freed from prison there is always also opposition.

 “ God will open doors which no man can shut.” And He will do it.

Life can get very real. Crazy things can happen around us, but we are the only ones that can hold ourselves back. Live like your free, because you are.


















LSOF: No Longer Bound

There are times when the Lord will have us face something in order to have it become a message that can be used to bring freedom for others, and really that could be said for each biblical character, this message hits close to my heart personally, and now I wanted to share.


A stronghold is…

  • Developed from lies we tell ourselves, or have been spoken to us.
  • Those things that hinder our ability to see reality.
  • Something that keeps us from seeing people as we should.
  • Something that keeps others from seeing us as they should, because we only show them what we want them to see….
  • Will often keep us from moving forward in the plans God has for us, also referred to as a “hurt or hang-up.”


I want to bring us back to the time that Peter was thrown into prison by King Herod which we can read out of

Acts 12:6-11.

The night before Herod was to bring him to trial, Peter was sleeping between two soldiers, bound with two chains, and sentries stood guard at the entrance. Suddenly an angel of the Lord appeared and a light shone in the cell. He struck Peter on the side and woke him up. “Quick, get up!” he said, and the chains fell off Peter’s wrists.

Then the angel said to him, “Put on your clothes and sandals.” And Peter did so. “Wrap your cloak around you and follow me,” the angel told him. Peter followed him out of the prison, but he had no idea that what the angel was doing was really happening; he thought he was seeing a vision. 10 They passed the first and second guards and came to the iron gate leading to the city. It opened for them by itself, and they went through it. When they had walked the length of one street, suddenly the angel left him.

11 Then Peter came to himself and said, “Now I know without a doubt that the Lord has sent his angel and rescued me from Herod’s clutches and from everything the Jewish people were hoping would happen.”


It was the night before he would be on trial.

He was bound by two chains and between two guards, and there were more guards outside his prison cell. He had no means of escape.

We find Peter even in those chains…sleeping.

It is interesting to me how even though Peter was bound in chains, and there were guards surrounding him that could easily harm him, that he was able to REST.


We all are or have been bound by something in our life at some point, but how often have we just learned to “live” with them then allow ourselves to be set free from them?

How many of us find ourselves “resting” and finding “comfort” in those things that bind us?

Most times then not, we make ourselves accept the chains then figure out means of escape.


In Peters case though, in this literal sense, I believe the Lord allowed him to rest because he had gone through quite an ordeal. The difference was though his rest was in the Lord alone and not because he was up all night trying to figure out how to overcome it all.

“Be STILL and KNOW I am GOD,” (Psalm 46:10)

“ The Lord HIMSELF will fight for you, You need ONLY TO BE STILL.” (Exodus 14:14)

“He who watches over you WILL NOT slumber; indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.
The Lord watches over you—- The Lord is your shade at your right hand; the sun WILL NOT harm you by day, nor the moon by night. The Lord will keep you from all harm— He will watch over your life; the Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.” (Psalm 121: 3-8)



In the middle of the night an Angel of the Lord came into the prison and struck Peter and his chains fell to the ground.


Before the angel of the Lord came into the prison let’s focus on the fact that Peter was in chains, He was bound to being between both those soldiers, and then when the Angel of the Lord came in he was struck and his chains fell to the ground. He was set free from his bondage right then and there.


This particular part of the story reminded me of Jacob wrestling with God and how when he was struck that he was then called a different name. He was no longer bound to the name he went by as “heel-grabber, or deceiver” after that moment. This story coorelates as to the fact that Jacob might not have had literal chains like Peter, but was bound by his old life until the Lord came in and struck him and made him walk “differently.”

24 So Jacob was left alone, and a man wrestled with him till daybreak. 25 When the man saw that he could not overpower him, he touched the socket of Jacob’s hip so that his hip was wrenched as he wrestled with the man. 26 Then the man said, “Let me go, for it is daybreak.”
But Jacob replied, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.”
27 The man asked him, “What is your name?”
“Jacob,” he answered.
28 Then the man said, “Your name will no longer be Jacob, but Israel, because you have struggled with God and with humans and have overcome.”
29 Jacob said, “Please tell me your name.”
But he replied, “Why do you ask my name?” Then he blessed him there.
30 So Jacob called the place Peniel,[g] saying, “It is because I saw God face to face, and yet my life was spared.” (Genesis 32:24-30)



The angel of the Lord then gives specific instructions on how for Peter to dress in order to get out of the prison safely. He first tells him to “put on his clothes and sandals, and wrap a cloak around and follow me.”


I think of what would have happened if he did not do as instructed. He could have put on his sandals and the cloak around himself, but he would be noticed fully that he was an escape prisoner.

Something we need to be on guard with is when it comes to the enemy, his plans are to harm us, to deceive us and torment us. I cannot imagine that Peter would have lived through the ordeal if he was noticed as an escape prisoner.


What is interesting in this scene the most is how Peter’s chains had fallen to the ground and he thought it was all a “dream.” In a sense, he did not really believe that his chains had come off him, he did not really believe he had been freed from bondage.


We can all relate to this part. One of the struggles in knowing our idenitity in Christ is knowing He has set us free. FROM ALL THINGS.


There was a series of events that happened in my past that seemed to repeat itself through each relationship in my life over time. It was a story that fueled the fear of rejection and other fears would stay at the surface too. Not too far back, I was having a conversation with someone and I shared about this situation that had happened, and fully expected that it would be taken out of context like many times in my past.

However, this time that was not the case. This time because it was a conversation with someone that has had a chance to know me, because of what the Lord revealed to them…and for the first time, I can fully say, it broke the chains off of me.

It was as if the Lord was saying, “ You are not who they said you were.”

And ever since that conversation it has been hard to have a good footing…I will often sit and think of it and just cry and say aloud, “ I am really free of that.”


In the movie, “ Shawshank Redemption,” one of my favorite parts of the movie, which is kinda gruesome but stuck out so much to me was when the old man was set free from prison but did not know how to live life after that, and he ended up hanging himself.


I think that can be us too, I think have to learn a new way to “walk” just like Jacob did when he was struck by the angel of the Lord.


Peter was led out of the prison and once he and the angel were cleared by the length of the street the angel of the Lord left him to walk on his own, and it was then standing in the street Peter realized he was no longer in prison.

He says to himself, “ Now I know without a doubt that the Lord has sent his angel and rescued me from Herod’s clutches and from everything the Jewish people hoped would happen.”


Peter started out being bound by chains in prison, with no means of escape. He probably thought that was how his life would end. He probably thought that God would leave him there because he was called to die at that time.


We have to get out of the mindset that we are bound to the lives we have. We have got to get of the mindset that “ God must have this planned for me.”

And when He sets us freewe need to walk in it!


“It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm then and do not let yourselves be burdened again by the yoke of slavery.” (Galatians 5:1)












LSOF: Rise and Shine

Sometimes I wake before the sunrise, and I’ll drive 35 minutes to the beach just to watch the light first pierce the surface of the horizon. I love to stand there and witness a new day, fresh with new mercies. It is interesting that the sun has a “specific,” time to rise, and its as if the Lord makes it known how rest is important because the length of the night. Everything has its timing, and a purpose tied to a promise.

In Genesis 15, Abraham had a conversation one night with the Lord, He said to Abraham, “Look up to the heavens and count the stars—If indeed you can count them, so shall your offspring be.” This was a promise that the Lord made to Abraham. Further in Genesis 22, we can read that the Lord tests Abraham’s obedience by having him sacrifice his son Isaac. The Lord stops him and says these words, “ I swear by myself, declares the Lord, that because you have done this and have not withheld your son, your only son, I will surely bless you and make your descendants as numerous as the stars in the sky and as the sand on the sea shore…”

It is so interesting to me how God speaks first in Genesis 15 to establish the covenant promise but to not actually confirm it until He saw the obedience of Abraham, “ Because you have done THIS.”

God will not give us what He is not ready to reveal.

I remember attending a conference a few years ago and there was this one speaker that was a football coach and he shared a story about a player that had tried out over and over, but in the end never got to play. The player tried the first year and did not make it, tried the second year and did not make it but did much better than the first time, but instead of preparing again for the next time he became discouraged and gave up. The coach contacted him to try out the next year because he had seen the determination and wanted to personally offer him a chance to try out and he lost the chance because he had lost not only the determination to play the game, but he lost the will. He saw not making the team as losing instead of an opportunity to continue to prepare until there came a time he was ready to play and make the team.

I love Ecclesiastes 3:11, because it simply states, “ He makes everything beautiful in its time.”

I think we often can look at the Lord as if He somehow wants to jip us out of the desires of our hearts, but Jeremiah 29:11 states, “ For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.”

I found something interesting while studying out the word, “ready,” and its interesting because in Hebrew text according to Strong’s H3559, it also means, “ to prepare,” and what is further interesting is when I looked at one of the scriptures 1 Chronicles 28:2 it states, “ And rose to his feet.” So the same word for ready and prepare also could be suggested could mean to “rise.” Looking further in that scripture it also states, “ I had it on my heart to build a house for a place of rest.” So in essence it might just be refering to the building as “prepare,” but even in building something is developing and rising is about something starting from one level and continuing onto the next level. So maybe we can suggest that prepare is to “rise up,” and to be ready is to “walk it out,” or “let it shine.”

I am in a place of preparation, but there are also areas I am aware the Lord has revealed I am ready to walk in. I think it is in preparation that most of the revelation happens to us.

When we try a shoe on at the store we often believe right then and there that they are “perfect,” for us, but then after buying them and wearing them the first day, most of the time we develop blisters because we have to, “ break them in.”

It is the same as when we step into areas we are now allowed to walk in. We realize the shoes are very uncomfortable. We realize that what we have always seen the position to look like from a far is a lot more than we may have thought.

And just like “breaking in,” shoes by dealing with blisters, we realize there are going to be times when situations happen when holding our position and standing for truth can break our heart. But we continue to walk anyway, because the journey is about growing into who we are called in every sense.

Being confident in this, He who began a good work in you will complete it until the day of Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 1:6)

We must allow ourselves to continue to grow, continue to develop, and continue to be teachable. If we stop in the middle it will be much harder to get going again. And we must believe in God’s plan, and have confidence in it. He does not hide things from us, He just reveals them when they are ready.