When you do not feel you are enough

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I wonder what everything has been like for you lately.  I wonder what you thought when you first woke up and realized it was morning.  I wonder what your day consumed of whether it was spending time with your family because of “stay at home,” orders, or if you were working from home, maybe you are a student, or if you are one of the “essential,” workers who are constantly changing gloves, sanitizing your workspaces, and adjusting your masks to be sure you were safe from the invisible virus.

No matter where you are right now, I want you to know, that you have value.

You are enough. Right now, Right this moment.

Some days you may wake up and realize the same routine is starting to overwhelm you, you might be a parent who is homeschooling your child and you feel that palpitations of a migraine begin while trying to remember vocabulary words, and math problems.  “Imaginary numbers? I don’t have a clue what they are anymore.” 

But to your child, you are enough, to your child through their tantrums of wanting to just stop school and play video games, they are glad you are there, to the depth of them they miss their teachers, but someone is teaching them.  They are not ungrateful.

You are enough. Right now, Right this moment. Your children and their teachers are glad you are there.

You could be someone who was laid off work because your position was removed for a time, or maybe the entire company itself has shut down, and you sit home and think, of “what ifs.”

You are doing just fine where you are, you did not choose the wrong position, this is an event in the entire world, and you may not see it now, but your work ethic will increase, your knowledge of what you were not sure you knew before will surprise you, whether you go back to the same position or you choose another, you will find a part of you will fit just fine whatever the case.

You are enough. Right now, Right this moment. You have value to add to any position just being who you already are, you possess what is needed for the future going forward.

You could be that person working from home. You may have dogs barking, babies crying, neighbors yelling etc.  You do your best to bring the same dedication to your job as you do while you are working inside the building. You find there are changes day after day to implement due to the CDC regulations, and you adapt, even if it is frustrating, you know that your company needs you right now, you are keeping people all across the country connected in some way.

You are enough. Right now, Right this moment. You are not just a number.

To the High School Senior, you have spent several hours late at night studying to have the GPA that would help get into the best schools, you may be dual enrolled and would be walking for both high school and college…You wanted to go to Prom, to Grad night, you wanted to travel at this time to check out the colleges that gave you offers…but instead you are home with your family, you are able to finish school online, but the joy of the moments you have waited for have been halted or cancelled because of Covid-19.

You are enough. You might feel like you are not seen right now, and that if you talk about how upset you are that you would seem entitled, but you are entitled to have what you should have had in this time and it is unfair that this virus as costed you so much…

But know you are seen, and if you speak you will be heard. You are struggling to make sense of the past few months as we all are…Thank you for being you and working so hard to go after your dreams. Don’t stop dreaming.

Finally, you could be an “ essential worker,” and you leave for work everyday and come home every night wondering if you did, “ enough,” to keep yourself, your co-workers, your patients, customers, and your family safe from the virus.  Some of you do not even see your family because you come home so late and leave so early or cannot sleep in the same room. Some of you are there on the “front lines,” face to face with the virus itself around you. You watch people fight for their lives, you are the substitute family member holding their hands, and you might even be that person that has to make the “tough,” phone call to the family.

You are enough. You are so enough. Right this moment, in this time and history, you are giving to others in a way they cannot help themselves, you are saving lives as the numbers grow…

I once watched a documentary, “ A Poor Man Shames Us All,” and it talked about a tombstone that could only be moved if “ 100 people gave the same power as one, the same mindset as one…”

To all of us, no matter where we are, who we are, and what we are doing in this time…this is our moment for which we have been created (Esther 4:14), this is our moment to do what we have never done so we can look towards a future we cannot see, but believe with all we have that ….it is there waiting for us.

Thank you for all you are doing right now.

 

 

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For those Lost and those Found

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I never actually read through, “ A Tale of Two Cities,” by Charles Dickens, but it could be that the first paragraph of the entirety of the book struck me so deep:

It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity, it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair, we had everything before us, we had nothing before us, we were all going direct to Heaven, we were all going direct the other way—in short, the period was so far like the present period, that some of its noisiest authorities insisted on its being received, for good or for evil, in the superlative degree of comparison only.”

My friends, we are currently living a tale of two groups of people, and the above quotations can largely describe what we are all feeling like as a nation.

There is a lot of anxiety and fear right now, there is a lot of people that are afraid of the virus and anxious from being out of work that they will not know how to provide for their family.

There is a lot of hopelessness too, and people who just cannot see how if there is a God why He would allow something so horrible into our lives and uproot us fully from everyday life.

There is a blame game of the origin of where the virus began, and also blaming politicians in every nation for not doing, “ more,” to keep it from spreading.

Fear is mostly the culprit in all of this though, because store shelves are not just empty locally but all over the world there are shortages of items that people just hoarded and some of it has no real necessity at the very present moment.

We laugh at memes, we watch news stories, we mock people who do this or did that…

But fear is the real deal, and we should really stop and just check on people daily or weekly, our families, are friends and our neighbors.  Everyone is going through some sense of fear right now, does not matter who you are and does not matter what you believe….it is real, and we are all feeling it.

We do need to further discuss what are healthy and unhealthy fears though, because there is a difference.

Healthy Fears:

I am someone with a history of pneumonia more than once in the last 5 years, and I have asthmatic allergies that can easily bring that on if I do not take an allergy pill daily, but even more so, I have a mother with Crohn’s disease, who I have seen go through more than several surgeries in her entire lifetime, and once with Mrsa that left her in the hospital for a good few months and we almost lost her.  When she goes to the hospital they place her in the cancer wing, because she cannot take any chances of infection happening to her body.

Which is why if she receives the coronavirus it would be really difficult for her recovery.

In this healthy fear though, we just do what we need to do to keep us safe.

I am working from home, I stay indoors, and I have chosen not to see my mother right now, or my friends that need to be away from people because they have other health issues, because I have been working call center and have been around other people that I am not sure whether or not they could have been carrying it, and where I live right now has more “presumptive,” cases then the entire county, and so it is wise to be inside and use precaution as now it is necessary.

People have said, “ I will not let this virus run my life,” but honestly, not everyone has that choice, and we can make a choice to protect other people just by letting our daily routines change for awhile.

Unhealthy fears:

This is also a time that people will be preyed on to create unhealthy fears, and I would say the media is a great example.  It is a virus, we are not living in bomb shelters, and a hurricane is not coming straight for us.  The parks, beaches, Disney etc, they were not closed because you can get the virus from sitting on a piece of grass, they were closed, because people do not know how to stay far enough away and not cough or sneeze on others, and apparently many do not know how to wash hands properly and let us not get started on people who do not know how to use a toilet property…It is the sad truth.

Again, I work in a call center, and I already know that once you hear someone cough, then what ever the virus is at the current moment will travel through the air, it is what happens when you work closely with people, or are too close to people who are sick.

Putting both of these fears aside I want to speak a little more on what I have observed as I have paid attention to people all over the world, and it is not something I know for fact, but is something I have often thought of through the course of watching this virus consume different parts of the world…

Personally, I believe according to my own faith that this is God’s judgement on our world, we can agree or disagree, but it is my belief.

When Donald Trump took office it revealed some deep rooted things in the hearts of the people everywhere, but especially in America.  I am not talking about because he as a person became the president, but the reaction and the response from people since that moment.

I was raised to respect authority, my grandfather would not let me have something unless I said, “ Thank you, May I, or Please?” My parents used to tell me that when I went out into the world I was a reflection of them, at the time I did not really understand that, but now I realize it meant that I am to be in the world who I have been taught to be at home. (No home is perfect, but there are morals and values that are good that all of us have been taught at some point.)

I was taught to stay quiet when adults around me were having a conversation unless it was important.  I was taught to respect people of all cultures and races, I was taught to have respect for the elderly and listen to their stories of the wars, and where they came from…

I am not saying by any means that our president is a stellar example of character, but I am saying if my grandfather was alive today he would say he may not agree with the man, but he would shake his hand because he was the president.

When I think of the authority over our nation right now I think back to the book of Daniel, and how because he honored the Lord so much that even though he was under the King of Babylon as  prisoner he still showed honor to him too, not because he agreed with him, but because he trusted in God, and God wants us to give honor and respect to all authority.

Praise be to the name of God for ever and ever;

wisdom and power are his.

He changes times and seasons;

he deposes kings and raises up others.

He gives wisdom to the wise

and knowledge to the discerning.

He reveals deep and hidden things;

he knows what lies in darkness,

and light dwells with him.

I thank and praise you, God of my ancestors:

You have given me wisdom and power,

you have made known to me what we asked of you,

you have made known to us the dream of the king.”

(Daniel 2:21-23)

King Neb (I can never spell his name, so we are nicknaming him), had a dream and asked for magicians and astrologers to interpret it, but they could not.  Daniel was able to interpret the dream because the Lord revealed it to him.  King Neb, fell down in front Daniel and worshipped him.

Daniel became honorary to the king and lived many years in the palace through king after king.

God does things to help his people rise up, He did not interpret Neb’s dream for the benefit of the king but for Daniel and the Jews.

It is possible that the church was never meant to be a building for worshippers that already know God, but possibly a place for those to go who do not, but want to know there is somewhere to find hope. As Christians, we are to rise up, and not waver under the fears that surround us all right now, we need to be strong for those who really are scared, and really cannot see hope from where they are.  We need to speak encouragement to people who have lost things during this time, jobs and graduations, ceremonies and other events that are not happening because of the quarantines.

People all over the world who are in quarantine are having time to sit and open their Bible for the first time, to listen to messages online, and people are praying who have never before.

We want them to keep reading, we want them to keep listening and we want them to keep praying.

“ If my people who are called by name, would humble themselves and pray, seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I would hear from heaven and I will heal their land.”

(2 Chr 7:14)

God is talking to those who already BELIEVE in the verse above. Yes, he is mainly talking to the Israelites, but  He is calling US to humble ourselves, to pray, and seek HIS face MORE than we have in the past, He is calling US to turn from the ways we have allowed the world to influence us and PRESS IN, and from our example, we will then be able to teach others around us how to do the same.

Whenever God gives judgement He will also bring about grace through it.We will get through this TOGETHER, as long we all stay together.